Hello all!  Long time no hear from...i know, i know.  but lets just say life has been complicated lately.  as it turns out i did not move to GA after all.  i should explain myself....so hears the scoop.  i was getting cold feet as it was, but then my senior pastor (who is the highly respected Western District Superint. Bishop Ron Mullings) came up to me and said he just had a bad feeling about the whole move.  pastor NEVER does stuff like that.  so i listened. 

as for me and nate, we're still talking but its all been highly emotional.  i felt that the whole thing was too fast for me and i just wasn't having peace like you should when you're in the right thing at the right time.  i also felt like i needed more reality time to get to know nate in person.  so i rest in the fact that Gods will is going to be the end result of all this.

well that all sounded fairly resonable, didnt it?  but the reason it was more complicated is because i had already quit my job, given up my apt, and shipped most of belongings to GA.  this whole thing has been one of the roughest times of my life.  by doing what i honestly felt was the right thing (albeit it was somewhat belated) i lost all my security.  i have felt confused and broken.  but things are falling into place again.  after prayer i've decided to go back to school and finish my BA...i start classes Nov 14.  my mom is helping me financially, and i have moved back into my old apt.  things are working out.  i feel like im settling in again.

but now for more news....as i've gone thru this i discovered that i really have quite a life.  a busy one with lots of supportive friends, leaving me with little online time due to the all of our frequent and fabulous get-togethers.  so everybody i'm getting off xanga!  i'm just too busy living "off line" i suppose.  but everyone i've come across on here has been superbly cool and i appreciated the "talks" i've had with some of you.  and special thanks to nate for making my extra cool background--i will miss that the most :)  lol. 

Laters!

news flash:  nates coming in three days!!!  yea!  he'll be here Saturday morning.  wow.  that means only 9 days left til i fly back to Georgia with him.  sorry everybody--i know i talk about this subject waaaay too much!  lol.  its just on my mind most of the time since my life lately is consumed with packing, shipping, thinking about packing/shipping, calling companies to get things in order for my move....so yeah.  "its a thing". 

in other news, God has perfect timing.  nate and i planned for me to move down earlier (in sept. instead of oct. or nov.) awhile ago...turns out its a good thing we did!  i thought it would just spare us missing one another, but there is more to it than that.  the new CEO of my medical institute is cutting costs, meaning eliminating certain jobs.  the other guy in my dept says he found out just yesterday that it looks like he'll lose his job.  that means i would've lost my job before him--he's been here way longer.  so its interesting how the timing for to move is perfect--i wouldve lost my job about the time i'm moving. 

well, i've gotta get going.  i'm still purging med charts, which involves many monotonous hours spent in front of a computer trapped in a cubicle!  haha.  not good when you're sleepy!!!  so i went and got a Rockstar on my lunch break--double size, baby.  chug a lug, chug a lug.  i feel good already! 

*sigh* 

Friday at last!  i need the weekend so desperately!  actually mostly i need the extra sleep i'll get this weekend--lol.  tonite i look forward to an evening of chilling out, followed by a saturday of sleeping in.  then saturday i will probly go over to my home church in Bellflower--my brother still goes there and called to let me know about a singles conference going on Friday and Sat @ 730.  I think i'll be too tired tonite, but maybe Sat i'll swing by.  All the guys from Bellflower know i'm taken, so they can "protect" from any single young pentecostal prospectos :) lol.  then Sunday is church, and Sun night the youth choir is singing some cool new stuff. its all good!

Then Nates comin in 8 days!!!  woo hoo!  cant wait to see him again. 

more later!

Nate bought the tickets!!!

Now its official.  i am moving on Tuesday the 7th of September.  Nates flying in next Saturday (cant wait to see him again at last!), and he'll be here for 10 days (whoop whoop) before we both fly back to GA. but that means i am only living in CA for another 19 days.  my friend bambam (also known as Nancy) brought this fact to my attention: 19 days.  oh my gosh!  i'm excited and sad at the same time  ......  but, the plus side is that i have been an air force brat (born and raised) all my life, so i adapt very easily to new places and people.  i'm used to moving every few years anyway--lol.  

wow, l9 days. 

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Happy Monday everybody!!! 

God has been so good to me.  last nites service was incredible...the Matoon Youth Choir visited from Ill. and they sounded great and were very anointed.  they shouted half the time they were singing.  they ministered thru the whole service and the altars filled.   God used me to minister to a few people and then He started talking to me one on one, reassuring me that i'm headed in the right direction.  I have no qualms about being in His will with the decisions i'm about to make...and that is a great feeling. 

But last nites service was also awkward!  afterward, that is.  i had several young men, er...hitting on me guess youd say.  so then i have to be like, "i'm engaged".  i just wanted to safety pin a picture of me and nate to my jacket or something!  lol.  dont know what these dudes saw in me, honestly. 

but oh well.. so thats the latest!